::end of 2011::

it ends tonight's ~ All American Rejects

i choose this song for ends of 2011....

yeah.. it's end tonight's..2011 officially close it's page yesterday... now.. i wish nothing but the best for you... let's welcome 2012... hehe.. big smile in the first morning of 2012... wish??? oh no.!!! i'm not going to make a wish.. why??? because the "wish" thing not working at all for me.. so, i think it's better for me to follow the flow of this year...

2011????

many things happen in this year.. there's a lot to talk about it... let's make it simple.. i started this year in a new place in MELAKA which is where i am now... why i'm here??... simple... i'm here because i am accepted as a degree student of UITM... hehehe.. it's the best thing happens for me in this year... yeay.... a lot of memory to remembered... sadness, happiness, experiences, challenges and so on... wow... i manage to live this year happily.. in a new place, new friends, new environment and maybe as a new person... no!! i'm just kidding about "as a new person" lol... THANKS TO GOD... i manage to live because of HIM... and much loves for peoples around me... My family, friends, and especially to person that i most love in this world my mom, my bapa, my nenek, my makcik, my siblings, and my niece... thanks to you all because always stand by me .. much love for you all.. muahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! and to my old and new friends thanks a lot....... special thanks to my new friends because always help me here..

i wish nothing but the best for you~ Adele

this song for a new 2012...

2012???

i don't know what gonna happen this year.. but i hope this year will become more awesome than before.. AMIN!!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD..... let's welcome this year with a big smile in our face.......

:thank you::

when night is coming.. there's a lot of things play in my mind.. today, while i listening music i remembered what I've done before... then i smile alone... oh God.. i wish i can go back there... i remembered when i had a great time with my friends.. its a long time ago.. back then, we use to hang out togethers.. doing things what we want to do.. no matter is good or bad we still do it.. but now, everyone is grown up.. everybody have their own life.. just like me... but all the moments we create together is the wonderful things in my life... we screw all the things.. skip school together, chase by the guard, hang out till the morning,club***** and so on.. Thanks to God... You give me such a wonderful friends to stand by me.. i know You send them to me for a reasons.. and i think i know the reasons... You send them to tell me whats is life is all about... to teach me how to live this life.. to stand by me when i need them.. You send people who accept me as who i am.. and to told me good or bad... i know i 'm not a perfect friend but i try to become a good friends...

i found this happiness when YOU test my family... yeah.. that's the truth... "saat kita tercari-cari matahari, Allah menurunkan hujan.. kita menangis mencari kemana hilangnya matahari.. rupa-rupanya Allah ingin menghadiahkan kita pelangi".. i'm not sure if write this sentence correct or not.. but its something like that.. what i want to say is... this sentence is true.. when God test us, actually He want to give us something ... so don't be to sad.. that's whats happen to me.. somethings that's i never imagine just happen to me.. and it's almost ruin everything's.. but behind all of that.. i found the happiness that i never imagine i can get... i found all these people.. people who's teach me everything's and people who's help me grow up to face the real life.... a precious gifts from God.. they know how to comfort me.. how to make me happy... when i sad they always by my side...

BUT... u can't ask only a good persons in your life.. there's always black when white is just fine... yeah.. this kind of person ??? i just want to kick their ass out of my life... i don't need them... what the hell they doing in my life ..if they want to spoil everything's just forget it.. i'm not letting them to do it... i'm not strong to faced them but i have people around me to fight them... i found many of them in my life.. a friends only when they need u... a friends that always stab your back and friends that have a split character which i called them "RUBBISH"... BUT.. i just can't throw them away... cause i'm not like them... if u want to be my friend.. it's okey with me... actually.. this kind of people teach me how to live this life carefully.. just like what my mom tell me.. be a friends with all people.. take the good things from them and the bad things take it as a experiences...

wow... now i realize .. realize that i manage to live my life awesome till now.. hahaha... yesterday become a history... today is a real things and tomorrow is a mystery... i live my life awesome.. how about u??? think about it.. and i'm sure u gonna smile.. thinks about it make u more appreciate your life... Thanks to God because give me a such wonderful life.. and i want to thanks to all people around me who make my life precious... and people who spoil everything's i forgive you..haha.. Good night world...

:::::::::LIVE LIFE LOVE YOUR LIFE::::::::

I need my strength now. Yeah, I need them. I need my mom, I need my father, I need my aunt, I need my friend and I need my family now. Seriously, everything here is just not right. I need them to talk to and I need their arms and their shoulders to put my head on. It’s true I have friends here but I just want them. Yeah, I’m happy outside but inside of me am lonely. I don’t know why? And I can’t say it in a word. I just need a few hours to meet all of them. I wish I were there with them now. Laughing and hang out. I miss all the moment. The way they treat me, how they make me happy. And for sure is, they know how to comfort me when I’m down. I’m not saying my friends here are not good enough but for moment like this I need someone that knows me well. I can smile when I’m here with my friends, going to class like usually, laughing; hang out, watching movie and so on. But, when I’m laying my body, all the people I need just come out from my head. Well, I guess I miss them too much. When am with them, everything is fine. All the things are just like what I want. Huh. I need my family. I want to be with them. I want to laugh and share the day happily. I need my friends there. I want to hang out until the morning. Even only in a small village but it’s enough for us to spend our time together. I don’t need a bowling, movie, or something like that when I’m with them. We just need a place to sit together and that’s enough to make our day pass awesome. I don’t need internet with them. And I don’t need a fake smile when I’m not happy with them. But here, when I’m down I need to pretend everything is okay. But the truth is NOT. It’s not means I’m being hypocrites here, but I just can’t share it yet. When with them, I can be like what I use to be. But here, I just can’t. OH GOD, I wish I can throw all this feelings far away. I have a test to do and my final exam is coming soon. I NEED MY STRENGHT.

When I look outside the window.. I wondering if I ready and did I manage to wake up for tomorrow... ??? Yeah.. I manage to live today but can I tomorrow..??? And I don't know what’s waiting me tomorrow, but for sure is I have to face it... no matter what happen good or bad I will just go through it.. Cause I know I can face it like what I did today... and I know I have awesome people around me to walk by my side... thanks to Allah... I hope all this people will stand by my side forever and ever until my breath stop.. Tomorrow is waiting for me... it gonna bring me a new life and new experience also new challenges... I can't wait to face it but am I ready...???? I hope I can be more better than today cause perfect is impossible.. no one is perfect... night is just pass... sunlight is waiting to shine... no matter what happen I know I can through it... and I will put all my strength.... WAITING FOR TOMORROW.....